Today,

October 28, 2011 at 4:11 PM

I had a dream I went out boating with my dad and friends. I stayed on board while he jumped in for a swim. I looked on the other side and soon enough yelled “shark!”

I didn’t take it very seriously until I followed it go under the boat and straight toward my father. My heart stopped for a second but I still had reasoning that sharks are merely creatures of curiosity & not actually like Jaws. So it just kept swimming.

The captain became nervous and steered the boat away not realizing my father was not on board. Finally after he was nowhere to be found I became frantic to turn around. The drive there made me uncomfortable and anxious not knowing what to expect. Medical boats & jetskis flew passed us in the direction we were headed and once we got there, people were screaming and the water had turned red.

It was the first time I woke up crying.

I jumped on shore searching through the dark colored water not knowing what to find, but wanting to know. That’s when he appeared from behind a wall and gave me a hug. I had no idea how he got there and how everything was ok. I had no idea who turned the water red and I didn’t care. All I could do was cry- because for a slight second.. I thought it was him. And there were so many things I never said, so many chances I never gave, so many phone calls I ignored, and so much I regretted. Doing & not doing.

So today I called him. & said I Love You. & that was all.